Kind of cheesy, but seriously, I dig it.
She's a good girl, loves her mama
Loves Jesus and America too
She's a good girl, crazy 'bout Elvis
Loves horses and her boyfriend too
It's a long day livin' in Reseda
There's a freeway runnin' through the yard
And I'm a bad boy, 'cause I don't even miss her
I'm a bad boy for breakin' her heart
And I'm free, I'm free fallin'
All the vampires walkin' through the valley
Move west down Ventura Blvd
And all the bad boys are standing in the shadows
All the good girls are home with broken hearts
And I'm free, I'm free fallin'
I wanna glide down over Mulholland
I wanna write her name in the sky
I wanna free fall out into nothin'
Gonna leave this world for awhile
And I'm free, I'm free fallin'
Thursday, June 4, 2009
Friday, May 22, 2009
Be strong
I have felt pain.
I have felt love.
I have felt disappointment.
I have felt betrayal.
I have felt happiness.
I have felt depression.
I have felt security.
I have felt comfort.
I have felt paranoia.
I have felt distrust.
I have felt anger.
I have felt gratification.
I have seen lies.
I have seen forgiveness.
I have seen achievement.
I have seen greatness.
I have seen violence.
I have seen quarrel.
I have seen perseverance.
I have seen selfless acts.
I have seen justice.
I have seen life.
I have seen death.
These are the things that have made me who I am today.
These are the things that make everyone.
How we decide to handle and absorb shows who we are.
Our paths intersect in ways that we can see or are completely oblivious to us.
Sometimes we go along the paths with our friends.
Sometimes we go alone.
Look at the path your taking right now.
When it finally ends, will you be happy you decided to follow the route?
Think about it.
Be depressed.
Be content.
Or be happy.
Follow your path and help guide others in the right way.
There shall be no regrets.
Without that decision, you wouldn't be where you are now.
Be happy.
Stay happy.
Overcome the boulders in the road.
Keep your path.
I have felt love.
I have felt disappointment.
I have felt betrayal.
I have felt happiness.
I have felt depression.
I have felt security.
I have felt comfort.
I have felt paranoia.
I have felt distrust.
I have felt anger.
I have felt gratification.
I have seen lies.
I have seen forgiveness.
I have seen achievement.
I have seen greatness.
I have seen violence.
I have seen quarrel.
I have seen perseverance.
I have seen selfless acts.
I have seen justice.
I have seen life.
I have seen death.
These are the things that have made me who I am today.
These are the things that make everyone.
How we decide to handle and absorb shows who we are.
Our paths intersect in ways that we can see or are completely oblivious to us.
Sometimes we go along the paths with our friends.
Sometimes we go alone.
Look at the path your taking right now.
When it finally ends, will you be happy you decided to follow the route?
Think about it.
Be depressed.
Be content.
Or be happy.
Follow your path and help guide others in the right way.
There shall be no regrets.
Without that decision, you wouldn't be where you are now.
Be happy.
Stay happy.
Overcome the boulders in the road.
Keep your path.
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
I woke up smiling
I woke up today next to a beautiful girl at my side so I have a feeling that the rest of today will be amazing. I have to work 2-9:30, but that's not going to kill my mood, not today.
Lately I've been thinking about a topic that doesn't usually cross my mind very often and that's my family. Growing up, there was always dispute, constant fighting and bickering that forced us apart further everyday. It's only until now that we've all grown up that we realize how stupid we were for never appreciating what we had. It was just us in that house growing up for a good few years of our lives and that changed nothing. We were so concerned with our own lives that we had gotten used to it being a completely different world from each other, instead of allowing our blood to be along side us. Sometimes we wouldn't see each other for weeks at a time even though we were completely free to do so. Getting away from the house and each other was sadly enough, what we focused on. But what can I say? The fighting and yelling and screaming just drove you insane after awhile so I guess it was understandable, but it still makes me wish I went about things differently. I love my mom, my brother, my sister, and scary enough, my dad too. (Mike, not Pete. Pete is a piece of shit that I'm glad didn't stay around to see me become a man without him.) Life is good and I'm just going to keep making it better.
Pete, if by some off-chance that you actually read this one day before you die (which I doubt), I just want to say this:
Thanks for the help by not being around. It made me become a man who isn't anything like you. Maybe one day you'll realize how dumb you were for not being a part of life because when I become great, you won't see it, ever.
This blog was kinda personal. I decided to open a bit so maybe I'll feel more comfortable doing it later on. It's the whole reason I made the blog!
Lately I've been thinking about a topic that doesn't usually cross my mind very often and that's my family. Growing up, there was always dispute, constant fighting and bickering that forced us apart further everyday. It's only until now that we've all grown up that we realize how stupid we were for never appreciating what we had. It was just us in that house growing up for a good few years of our lives and that changed nothing. We were so concerned with our own lives that we had gotten used to it being a completely different world from each other, instead of allowing our blood to be along side us. Sometimes we wouldn't see each other for weeks at a time even though we were completely free to do so. Getting away from the house and each other was sadly enough, what we focused on. But what can I say? The fighting and yelling and screaming just drove you insane after awhile so I guess it was understandable, but it still makes me wish I went about things differently. I love my mom, my brother, my sister, and scary enough, my dad too. (Mike, not Pete. Pete is a piece of shit that I'm glad didn't stay around to see me become a man without him.) Life is good and I'm just going to keep making it better.
Pete, if by some off-chance that you actually read this one day before you die (which I doubt), I just want to say this:
Thanks for the help by not being around. It made me become a man who isn't anything like you. Maybe one day you'll realize how dumb you were for not being a part of life because when I become great, you won't see it, ever.
This blog was kinda personal. I decided to open a bit so maybe I'll feel more comfortable doing it later on. It's the whole reason I made the blog!
Monday, May 18, 2009
First in a while
So I haven't posted for a minute because honestly, I really haven't had much time AND things have been going so well. For starters, there's been a few things on my mind, most good and some...annoying I guess you can say. The biggest topic on my head so far is whats been stirring my emotions around the most, but is DEFINITELY not negative.
Becca.
So many things to say but so many little words to describe. This girl makes my heart race every time I get close, or plan on seeing her, or even just getting a txt. Just one txt from her can turn my whole day around. It's so hard for me to stop thinking about her everyday, so hard. That's when anxiety shows it's fucked up little face and tries to bring down positive.
Not this time.
Kramer says go-with-the-flow. Fuck the thoughts and the deep thinking and let the pieces fall where they may. When I think about it, it kinda sounds like something I've told her before, but it's always hard for me to take my own advice. She's right though. I'm excited to see what will happen these next few months.
On a different note, OfficeMax is another major piece of my thought-process right now. The job is fairly easy, the hours are good, and the pay is...well the pay is average. I get along with everyone there for the most part but I don't think I'm very good at the job at all. Interacting with customers FUCKS me up. Playing people and being charismatic is surely not my strong point at all. The most important thing about that job is what I suck at the most, fo real. I guess you can say it's helping me though, Bill has become quite the teacher for me and it's been helping a lot. Maybe if I keep doing this I might actually get good at talking to strangers. A skill like that would open so many doors I can't begin to imagine to think of it all. It sucks being stuck inside all day though and missing out on all of the outdoor activity and spending time with Becca, but it won't stay like tha forever.
I haven't been able to honestly say this in a long time but...
LIFE IS GOOD
There has been one person that REALLY REALLY fuckin bugs me though. That psycho bitch Katt. I don't talk to her anymore EVER, but yet she still sends me at least one mean txt everyday. Every fucking day. She trys her hardest, her fucking HARDEST to make me question myself as a person and make me feel like I'm just this fucked up little bug that no one will ever love or respect.
FUCK THAT
She us to be able to do it but not anymore. I wish someone would just go beat her ass for me. Maybe if I get lucky she'll fuck up and send me a txt saying she wanted to kill me so I could finally get her crazy ass out of my hair. I could see that happening too.
I miss my friends though. I haven't seen them much but that kinda stuff happens when you work a lot. Everything will work out, it always does.
There is so much more I want to type but I'm not going to get dow like that in a public post though. I want you guys to have an idea of whats going on, I don't want to make you read an essay everytime I post. Becca will be over soon too, :). I love it.
Becca.
So many things to say but so many little words to describe. This girl makes my heart race every time I get close, or plan on seeing her, or even just getting a txt. Just one txt from her can turn my whole day around. It's so hard for me to stop thinking about her everyday, so hard. That's when anxiety shows it's fucked up little face and tries to bring down positive.
Not this time.
Kramer says go-with-the-flow. Fuck the thoughts and the deep thinking and let the pieces fall where they may. When I think about it, it kinda sounds like something I've told her before, but it's always hard for me to take my own advice. She's right though. I'm excited to see what will happen these next few months.
On a different note, OfficeMax is another major piece of my thought-process right now. The job is fairly easy, the hours are good, and the pay is...well the pay is average. I get along with everyone there for the most part but I don't think I'm very good at the job at all. Interacting with customers FUCKS me up. Playing people and being charismatic is surely not my strong point at all. The most important thing about that job is what I suck at the most, fo real. I guess you can say it's helping me though, Bill has become quite the teacher for me and it's been helping a lot. Maybe if I keep doing this I might actually get good at talking to strangers. A skill like that would open so many doors I can't begin to imagine to think of it all. It sucks being stuck inside all day though and missing out on all of the outdoor activity and spending time with Becca, but it won't stay like tha forever.
I haven't been able to honestly say this in a long time but...
LIFE IS GOOD
There has been one person that REALLY REALLY fuckin bugs me though. That psycho bitch Katt. I don't talk to her anymore EVER, but yet she still sends me at least one mean txt everyday. Every fucking day. She trys her hardest, her fucking HARDEST to make me question myself as a person and make me feel like I'm just this fucked up little bug that no one will ever love or respect.
FUCK THAT
She us to be able to do it but not anymore. I wish someone would just go beat her ass for me. Maybe if I get lucky she'll fuck up and send me a txt saying she wanted to kill me so I could finally get her crazy ass out of my hair. I could see that happening too.
I miss my friends though. I haven't seen them much but that kinda stuff happens when you work a lot. Everything will work out, it always does.
There is so much more I want to type but I'm not going to get dow like that in a public post though. I want you guys to have an idea of whats going on, I don't want to make you read an essay everytime I post. Becca will be over soon too, :). I love it.
Friday, May 8, 2009
Thursday, May 7, 2009
Her
There is this girl. She's quiet, she's gorgeous, and she is so amazing just to be around. I get nervous, so nervous, but I know it's all good because her and I aren't much different. I can't wait to hang out with her again, I never can. This time will be different.
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
These past couple months
A+
These past months have been absolutely amazing. I love all of you guys, Keith, Dev, Kramer, Kurt Dan, Nic, Stephen, I love all of you guys and I don't know how I did it when I wasn't around you. Thank you guys for everything. My b-day (best b-day ever), the advice, the rude awakenings, and just being there. So much to say. I haven't been this happy in such a long time. From now on no matter what happens, I'm not going to let it keep me down. There's been a lot of shit going through my mind and I finally realized how much I'm maturing. My lessons are learned now.
These past months have been absolutely amazing. I love all of you guys, Keith, Dev, Kramer, Kurt Dan, Nic, Stephen, I love all of you guys and I don't know how I did it when I wasn't around you. Thank you guys for everything. My b-day (best b-day ever), the advice, the rude awakenings, and just being there. So much to say. I haven't been this happy in such a long time. From now on no matter what happens, I'm not going to let it keep me down. There's been a lot of shit going through my mind and I finally realized how much I'm maturing. My lessons are learned now.
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